some days things just don't go your way. sometimes those days come side-by-side and end up as a week, a month, or longer, stretching out infront and behind you like a road that certainly isn't yellow brick.
i hate to moan and yet, i love it too. i don't want to burden any one with my problems, not really. i'd rather be able to buckle down and get on with things but i'm very bad at that. i'm much more qualified at whinging than anything else.
what's brought all this on you may wonder. why have you started blogging again tonight of all nights? well, i lost my job on Friday (and no, it's not behind the sofa or under the bed - i already checked). i shouldn't have got so attached - it was a temp job after all - but i liked it. i thought the people there liked me but obviously not enough to forgive me my mistakes and let me stay. it's wasn't that great a job but it was one i didn't mind getting up for in the morning, and i know a lot of people who envy that. i'm really worried that i won't be able to find that feeling again, and of course i'm worried about money in the short-term.
i can't even have a miserable weekend in peace. the street and surrounding neighbourhood - not exactly Beverly Hills at the best of times - has become a war zone. really - the sky looks like the scene over Baghdad and the shells are falling all around. it's not even November yet and the illegal fireworks are in the hands of children again. thing is with this lot if they did hurt themselves it'd be because they were using them as weapons or trying to put them through someones' letter box. i hate chavs. chavs with fireworks i'm scared of.
and one last moan for good measure - well, not a moan, just a reminder for my American readers to get out and vote on Tuesday. i don't want Bush to be the most powerful man in the world for the next four minutes never mind the next four years. i'm not sure if Kerry is who the American people want but please, go and vote and make sure there is a clear winner this time. in 2000 the only people who won were the lawyers, which can never be a good thing. |